Surely I am not the only person that feels like every time you turn around something goes wrong? You know, just when you think you have things under control, something else goes wrong. Friends, I had to step away for a minute after recently finding myself overwhelmed. After being so sick for several months, fracturing my elbow (which makes blogging VERY difficult by the way), spending 2 weeks at the Mayo Clinic by myself and away from my family, losing my friend to cancer, losing my cousin violently to murder, and attempting to return back to work after 8 months on disability leave, I needed to take a 10…a break. BUT, I AM BACK!!!
Some of you are reading this going “oh yay, thank God she is back!!” Others are reading this going, “ugh, dear God she is back.” Regardless of the group you fall into, you are reading this and for that alone I am grateful. See, after experiencing everything that I have, I wasn’t quite sure if anyone would ever read my words again. I found myself so overwhelmed with everything that was going on around me, that I actually wondered if continuing to write even made sense any more. I have over 30 drafts of blogs waiting to be released, but the words seemed so far from where I was at the momment that releasing them seemed like fraud almost.
So, here is what I decided. Writing continues to make sense. Each day that I am above ground and breathing, is a day for someone to learn from my experiences and read my journey. I have always been transparent on this blog, and I will continue to do so. While sharing my daily journal will become more difficult than ever before, I will push through it and do it.
I started this blog almost a year ago. At the time, I wanted to create a space for people like me to have an open and honest voice. I never promised that every post would be encouraging, positive, or even fun. But, I did promise that every post would be candid, transparent, and 100% my life.
Right now, my life is in complete, unorganized, yet beautiful chaos. So, buckle up your seat belts peeps…this ride is back in full operation. It’s about to get a little bumpy….